2AM crying my eyes out to defend my own life...my own future and for what reason?...Since I was little I was looked down upon. I was known and still am known to be the black sheep of the family. Everything I do is a mistake. I bring home a guy and its a mistake because he's white and he won't open himself to our culture, because he'll only use me for sex and leave me the next day, because he's a punk. It's the cultural difference and the way he was brought up that made him think like this...

After 7 years of being with him I still cannot believe the shit I get from my parents about him. It's truthfully a long story...he came from a broken family; his parents were drug addicts and when he was stripped away no one was willing to take him in along with his baby brother who has cerebral palsy and autism. He was put into foster homes who would only take him in for the money that he and his brother would bring in, he was then finally put into a foster home where the mother was the most caring and genuine person in the world...that house had a family even if it was only a bit messed up. A year into our relationship together, she was diagnosed with cancer and the house began to crumble..Her godchildren came into the picture thinking they could run the house but they did more damage than good, they wanted me out of the picture because apparently I was controlling since I didn't let my 13 year old boyfriend (of course during that time) drink and smoke his life away when they suggested he'd do so and follow their dumb lead...Her birth daughters came into the picture and helped the family out, one of them actually agreed to take care of two siblings and move them into her house while the other was battling a sickness of her own. After his adopted mother's passing, everything hit rock bottom. On the day of the mother's funeral, his adopted "father" didn't even stay for the burial, he was in a hurry to rush home and place a bet and have a drink..I began to see the true color of that family, everything was about money and things got out of hand. The two siblings became badly influenced by the godchildren, the people they hung out with and the environment they were already introduced to both while they were still living in that house as well as when they moved to the daughters house. They became people who I could barely even recognize, and it was hard for me to see them like that because they were like a brother and sister to me...we dealt with that for a couple years until things really got out of hand. Theft, alcohol and break-ins were involved. Throughout all this time, the adopted "father" was (and currently still is) drinking his life away. Not only did that happen but the my boyfriend's birth mother tried to seperate us and fed him lies about how I was using him for his money (would I really have stayed and dealt with all that shit if I did? We were only 14 with a total combined $27.50 combined allowance, we both didnt have much money to begin with...). So that tore us up for a while and he changed for the worse but I still had hope for him and currently, he's still working his way up to become the man he wanted to become... During that time of being torn away from him, I went to the hospital for my medial condition, was operated on and I was dealing with all this stress. That was when I found out I only had one kidney, yep, born with only one~ A couple years later I was still dealing with his birth mother, we had a love hate relationship but she was the one who helped me go prom shoe shopping and prom bag shopping, although she constantly attacked me, I'm grateful to have had her in my life... She passed away a couple years ago battling with cancer and a few months later her husband (my boyfriend's birth father) had also passed away. I wasn't close to the birth father because he was still trying to recover from the drugs, he began paving himself a new path to go down and I was so happy for him... Every single time we would have barbecues he'd cook for us and just make us laugh. It was only my boyfriend and I dealing with this and no one understood what it felt like to be 14-15 year old taking on the responsibility of that house as well as the family drama. For a total of 7 years, we've had to deal with this alone, everyone thinks we're lying when we tell them what we go through...that it's impossible for us to have to deal with this from when we were 13 until now. We were and still are constantly stuck in the middle and we are of course the ones to blame. Currently some ties have been cut with the birth daughter, and their first adopted son came back into the picture. He moved in to "help" the dad but after "helping" for two months and bringing home girls that he'd propose to, he's done nothing but more damage to the house. He's part of a biker club and he always chooses that club over his family. He recently brought home his new fiancée, she's 20 (my age) and she honestly thinks she's my mother in law and my boyfriend's mother. Little does she know that her fiancé has had so many previous fiancées before her. They brought home two of the dumbest dogs ever and don't even watch over them, my boyfriend and I are the ones who end up picking up after their shit and piss. Not to mention they lost one of their dogs and REPLACED it with another one within a couple of days. This past thanksgiving, she brought her family to the house, and the whole house turned upside down, it was full of loud obnoxious delinquents and criminals and honestly I just wished the house had burned down at that point. The drunk "father" wires money into their JOINT bank account while my boyfriend and I of SEVEN years had never received anything like that from him. Not only that but this guy commits so much insurance fraud and he recently got his father to cosign a a brand new 2015 car with him. DID I FORGET TO MENTION, this guy DRAINS the family's money on himself, the fiancée and the dumb dogs that they're never home to take care of. The father only approves because they (the father and first adopted son) were both veterans. Apparently my boyfriend and I, to him are a waste of time because we go to college to get and education and pursue a career so that we have a stable future. Can someone please just say #joke? So we are currently still dealing with this bullshit along with other bullshit from my side of the family.

*UPDATE: I THINK THEY GOT MARRIED. yep. after only a couple months of dating. I wish her the best of luck because she's his 4th-5th wife and was his 10th fiancee.*